Doing half

Homework I didn't bother to touch it yet...which is why I'm gonna pay the ultimate price tmrw T_T or maybe later at night T__T Gotta rush all of it again. And damn =/ I dont understand some parts of Bio unless I read through, doing notes doesn't help me at all =(. Chemistry is ok ok. But Physics O_O I think I'd need intensive training on that =/

Thinking up stuff for two days and nothing much I could come up with =( Gotta keep trying anyway!



We're right behind you

Say it with me

" Yen Ling, you are such a jack ass "



And I really feel that I am that right now =/

And another year

It makes me feel......sad somehow. The way time moves on quickly, leaving us all scrambling in life to catch up with it. It kinda seems unfair sometimes. I came back from Alor Setar at 4 today and I feel sad leaving actually. I left my two new nephews and niece back there and my grandma and uncles and aunts.


Everytime, we leave and come back again. My grandma has a hard time remembering our names and ...us at all actually. Everytime, we go there......she'll cry because she can't remember and she'll cry again because we always have to go back to KL. It makes my heart break literally.


Anyway, PMR's coming soon. I feel quite...well I don't know what I'm feeling! O_O I feel terrified, scared to death, and well...I'm hoping it goes well. I hope all of us gets straight A's, really. Another 3 more days.....


And ou future would be set. No more turning back. Changes might split us apart. Our lives might never cross again with one another. But, I won't forget and will remember them all =)


The best present would be the thread that connects forever =D

Yesterday

You know what, yesterday was the most awesome-est thing ever!!!!! LOL I dont use this word often! 8D I never really get to spend my birthdays with a lot of friends because its Christmas Eve. Most of them would be spending their time with families or concerts for Christmas.

So, I was practically giddy with happiness yesterday! I love every single person who was there yesterday!!!!! 8D And I would love to give every one of you a HUUUUUUUGE hug unless you dont want me to! LOL Well, except for Chi Yan of course! LOL She never liked to be hugged XD

I'm kinda lazy actually to explain what exactly happen so I wont XD But the suprise was the cake LOL eventhough Tim did gave me spoilers by telling me the day before LOL but I forgot all about it XD Romeo (I think) off-ed the lights and you know what I thought it was part of a game..LOL!

Then came in Tim holding the cute yet delicious cake and walked over XD then you know la sang the song and everything XD >___< LOL Cheryl and Char Lie and Char Nie practically poked me to death just to make me stand XD The embarassing part was when all three of us (Kah Deng, Johnathon and me) had to blow the candles together HAHA


And they wanted to take pictures of it >_< Which I'm glad they didn't 8D But overall I'm glad I was able to come and I love my friends! =D

And John!!!!!!! Why'd you have to move school! =( HAHA I still remember the boy with the cap last time LOL XD The John now and last time is really different and yet almost the same =) I hope you'll be happy at your new school! And come back to visit us every now and then!!!!!!

Old times (?)

I am missing everything from my childhood right now. LOL I sound like an old grandma...




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=______=



I miss my old neighbours. MY NICE NEIGHBOURS unlike the ones next to my current house =.=

My old best friends, my old school which some people say are where a lot of lesbians come from. LOL


My old house, my old mini whiteboard I used to practice my maths with my mom when I was small.



My old garden where I always play and tend to the plants (ocassionally)


My old backyard where I helped my old nice maids plant chilies, tomatoes, potatoes (Yes, Su Wen, I used to have your little cousins at the back of my house but ppl always steal them =.=), papayas, onions and a lot of stuff 8D

We would change the plants from time to time. There was one mangoes tree but it didnt bear any fruit yet because it still young.



My old fence. Yes the fence LOL it was made err.....well like this?




Looook! birdies! 8D

I miss the 4 stray cats I took care of (secretly without my parents permission 8D) for 2 years. And I didnt get caught! >8D I always shook the fence when I was small haha And it became er..they're bell? normally I'll shake it and they'll come running to my house meowing HAHA

Guess what they're names are?




LOL


The mom to the other 2 was Kitty. HAHA Well, I was 8! You can't blame me!!

The litter was Kuzco (Boy) named after Kuzco from The Emporer's New Groove LOL (Named by my friend) and Cutie LOL This one I have to laugh HAHHAHAHA Cutie was the girl and takes after the mom =D


The last one.....


I can't seem to remember the name but I remember that one clawing at me by accident. This one was fighting with Cutie over something. I dont know what though. Maybe me? 8D Then she tried to claw Cutie and I stopped them. Well, I kena la. And tough luck, I also kena stratched by the hanger LOL Yeah, a hanger =_=


And I miss my old bike and old things and my old teddy bears and my old bolsters and my old neighbour's dog and my neighbour's rabbit =(

All the memories are still with me though. And I'm happy remembering the little bits of things that happen that even everybody else has forgotten =D

I even remember the horrible moments of my life even when they don't remember. And guess what? I'm actually glad it all happen 8D because without those moments. It wouldn't help me grow up


And oh yeah, I miss the big drains I always play in HAHA yeah, drains LOL They aint dirty actually. Clean really 8D See how nice the outskirts were last time? XD...Okay maybe not that far from the city but far enough? LOL

CHI YAN!

You've finally became 15 and old HAHA I bet she's gonna have a kick at me if I don't give her a present HAHA Jk only! XD


CHI YAN I WAS JOKING! >__< OKAY!?

Anyway, the person who speaks her mind right out and is/was the PQ a.k.a Porn Queen has grown and changed this year! Don't deny it! but, its also a good thing =D

and Chi Yan. I DID NOT FORGET LAST YEAR! I just didnt know what to get you T____T

But this year, you're gonna get one okay!?! LOL

Thank you Chi Yan! For being my friend and going through life especially school with me! We all love you (ESPECIALLY ME! >8D ME! YOU HEAR!!!!!?!?!? ) AND I WAS 2ND!!! Sook Yii, I'm beating ya to it next year! Chi Yan, you didn't have to run THAT much for me to wish you, you know!? T____T


Sooo, have a happy birthday today! And cheer up! Eventhough you're getting older, I'll be right behind you HAHHA After all another 1 more month, and I'll be old too together with ya HAHHA

This horrible feeling

I hope it doesn't eat me up alive.

SU WEN!!~!~!~!

I LOOOOOOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!~!~!~!!!


Thank you for the dress =3 and I owe you big time =D

THANK YOU AGAIN!!~!!!!!!! >.<

Awww..

The manga was so cute and sweet, it made me cry my eye balls out.

Go to Char Nie's blog

The video she posted up was really heart-breaking =(

The older sister was very brave and caring. You should watch it. The link is on the right side.

THAT IS IT

YOU'VE JUST CROSSED THE LINE YOU ...YOU....(INSERT CURSES). WE'VE BEEN REAL PATIENT WITH YOU AND I CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE! You don't bother at all. AND WHY SHOULD I ANYMORE!? You are ON TOP of my black list RIGHT UNDER M WHICH IS TOP 3!
I DON'T WANT TO TRY TO GET ALONG WITH YOU ANYMORE. YOU'RE JUST TOO MUCH!!!!!

I hope at least you'll grow to be a decent person.

Sry

If I didn't invite you to go ice-skating on Friday that day...I'm sorry!!! >___< This is the full explanation...! We actually didn't planned to go ice-skating, we wanted to just watch a movie or maybe just stay at my house the next day. But then it maybe boring just to stay so....we decided at.. 11.00 p.m to go Sunway the next day...haha.. So we couldn't invite anyone else because it was so last minute...^^llll Sorry! If you still feel mad or something. You may hit me in the face on Monday when school reopens..but just tell me before you do that... XD

Laughter =)

1,2, laugh!

People say laughter is the greatest medicine,
To me laughter is an expression of joy,
The music of the heart inside,
The feeling and serenity it gives.


I thank my lucky stars for the friends I've met,
The friends who give me joy,
Who are gifted with ways of their laughter and giggles,
And share and spread their laughter to me.


A cheerful heart keeps the sadness away.
A laughter a day keeps the wrinkles away =)


So go on, laugh,
Laugh till you cant bear it anymore,
Laugh till everyone thinks your nuts, but you are anyway XD
So laugh, and I'll laugh with you too. ;D

Installation

was really fun XD And I enjoyed every single minute of it =) Eventhough H EDDK QDZK KDES NTS..... (And no that isn't a typo error XD) Wanna go to the Paroimia tonight =/ But cant sadly. But now I'm off to reading mangas or books or something else XD

























VGZS CHC H CN VQNMF????????


SDKK ND. H QDZKKX VZMS SN JMNV......

Whee~

Exam's over and I'm off to enjoy myself and put my nose into books! Not literally of course XD

And tmrw's the Installation...I wonder how it'll turn out....XD

And I don't think I'll be blogging or have anything to do with the computer for a while. It reminds me too much of the horror of projects =/












"I shot an arrow into the air,
It fell to earth, I knew not where;
For so swiftly it flew, the sight
Could not follow it in its flight.

I breathed a song into the air,
It fell to earth, I knew not where;
For, who has sight so keen and strong
That it can follow the flight of song?

Long, long afterward, in an oak
I found the arrow, still unbroke;
And the song, from beginning to end,
I found again in the heart of a friend."

-- Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Thanks everyone for tolerating my eccentricness (this whole week or maybe the whole time you knew me) and also if I was too cranky and complained too much, I'm sorry.

PBSM First Aid Course XD

It wasn't as bad I thought it would be...in fact I thought it was real fun XD =)

Actually Char Lie and Char Nie joined too, but then they didn't want to and asked someone else to take their place... LOL So left me and Becca ! XD


At first we thought we were the only Form 3s there. Then we saw Zhen Meng and Chun Yuen XD At the beginning it wasn't real that exciting but then the CPR dummie came along


*Dum dum duuuuuum*




There were 5 dummies so we had to take turns well do CPR on the dummies, yeap mouth to mouth 4 times ...XD;;;;;;;;;; And nope my dummie's head didn't came off =D Everytime when a person's turn was finished, they will put listerine on the dummie's mouth... Bleck =/ It tastes real funny because its really sticky and the minty taste XD


And the lecturer or err....person in charge kept saying...after we checked the 'pulse' and breathing..we have to kiss it (Hembus or err....exhale into the dummie's mouth (?) ). LOL Not literally la of course XD


Fong Yik was the unluckiest of us all, she had to do the mouth to mouth thing 12 times, 8 more times than we all did ! XD Because she was in the last group to do. She has just lost her first 12 kisses XD LOL jk.


The most fun part was the 'baluting' part XD I kept doing it wrong so I always became the model instead for Becca....I suck at bandaging =( And becca out of fun, go and handcuffed my hands together when I wasn't aware. >_<


Had to asked Zhen Meng to help uncuffed me. After all of it was over, me and Becca waited for out transport outside. Then Becca got real bored so she threw my Sejarah book into the field through a hole. I jumped down and retrieved it..then she took my rubberband pula and threw it out again. =/ After that, she took my pencil box and threw it too =.=


Soon, my dad came and icked me up and I went home~


Around 5.30, I took Bruno out for a walk with Xin Chien like usual. After a while we took him to the playground. There were two boys playing badminton and both were I think about standard 1 or 2. Bruno started approaching Boy A. Boy A was real nice and played with him =) But boy B is really someone you'd get irratated at. Boy B wanted to hit Bruno with his racquet....>=( I tell ya I was about to stop him but Boy A stopped him first and said " Eh, dont hit him la! He didn't hurt you also!" Boy B kept quiet so I walked away from them and smiled at Boy A. Boy B then said " Disgusting dog" =_=



I felt like killing him right there! I wanted to smack him so bad! >=[ But then he was just a small kid. Maybe he'd learn as he grows up that dogs aren't disgusting but are living things like we all are. If he really still is a rotten kid, I tell ya I would really want toteach him a lesson. No one talks horribly about my dog, friends or family.

Boy was I so off

I thought you were nice. I thought you were actually NICE, I guess it was a cover up huh? Well, congratulations.....



































































































































You had us all fooled including me. I never noticed what really was going on. You were only nice to me after I got the MP4. Hm, now that I think about it......after I got it from my parents, you were always hanging around me..PRETENDING to be nice.





























And sooner or later, I found out it was always going missing. I thought it was my brother at first, taking it as he pleased. And then it was gone from the box I always kept it in. And again I blamed my brother for losing it because he was using it last. And after 7 months later......we found it in


































































.........your wardrobe. We never said anything. We just took it away and hid it from you, but in the end when I was searching for it in the hiding place. It was gone again. And still, we never did anything. And that day, I came home early that time. I rang the bell and waited for 30 minutes right in front of the house. You didn't open it up. I couldn't figure it out though at that time. But after that I knew....










































You were wearing jeans and a tight black top. You were walking slowly taking your own sweet time. And then you saw me, and started running towards me and said that you didn't know that I was coming back early. But what I couldn't understand was why you had a panicked tone..and why'd you wear jeans out. And the reason you gave me was...

























You were getting sand for the plants. You were'nt carrying a spade, you weren't carrying a bag of plastic, you weren't even wearing the normal clothes you normally do. So, I began to be suspicious. My mom called the house 6 times without anyone answering, so when she came home she was worried. I told her everything. You glared at me when my parents advised you about going out again. And after that, you just ignored me and treated me like ......



















nothing.























And after I got a radio, you became nice again. It was weird. Real weird. My brother became suspicious too.

Wrong..right...? Noo...WRONG

No one can be perfect, and I know that. But, I can never forgive myself for doing things that have or had which are e.g. breaking the rules/ hurting my friends/ feeling like being left out. I can't blame anyone for the things I DID because I'm just doing it to myself. I'm the one who forgets a lot, never thinking straight, making people despise me , and most of other stuff. And when I'm feeling like I dont belong anywhere, it's also my fault. Too true. Eventhough I'm being hated , despised, loved (friends) and many more, I'll try to move on and try to keep those sweet memories and friendship while I have it. I'm not trying to blame anyone for anything, I really don't. Because, this is how I am.

I'm apologizing beforehand if I hurt you in any way and done things you will never forgive. I'm will not force you to forgive me, I just want to say what I should and want to you.