Dilemma

Okay, now its MY turn pula to talk about my future XD I'm having a dilemma...a bit XD

I went to IMU last Saturday and went around asking questions...It'll take me around 10 years just to finish my doctorate degree! AND ONLY! TEN YEARS! T___T After 5 years of studying...I'd have to go for Housemanship at ANY general hospital around this whole country...T_T Who knows? I might end up at Sarawak =( I'd miss my family a lot and BRUNO TOOO!!! And my friends XD

And I have to go through Houeman ship for 2 years, rotating through every department! EVEN STINKING SUGERY! NOOOOO! T_T And I hope I dont end up in the labouring department....waking up in the middle of the night to help someone give birth. LOL Although seeing the baby would make me awfully happy, I still dont wanna go to surgery. I'd cry my eyeballs out if the person dies during the surgery! Oh yeah....and the labouring one..if the baby dies in the womb too =( See how many deaths could happen?


After that...it adds up to 7 years. The other 3? Well, this one I dont mind. I GET TO CHOOSE WHICH DEPARTMENT I WANT! 8D I have to be a medical officer for 3 years in any department I want. But you know...it gets a bit draggy...after 7 years...only I get to help what I want...somewhere around taking care of kids 8D



But then by the time I get my degree....I'd be 28 already =( Okay..guys skip this paragraph if you're a guy, really. This one you don't have to read =.= ..........I wanna get married before I turn 27-29 =.= I know. I know =( But I wanna get married before I turn to my thrities! T__T You understand right? I'd be busy like crazy before I can even ...well..date? or something =.= I dont know la.....but you know I wanna have kids too =( This is so sad. I really, really, really dont wanna end up with another doctor..because he'd be too busy to even care about the kids and also it'll break the kids heart =( And mine too HAHA XD




Okay skip skip that one. Anyway, I want a specialist degree and also it'll probably take another 1-2 years depending on what i want to specialise in =/ So only when I am 30 or 31, then I would be done with my studying.


So...I'm gonna ask you a favour say yes or no in my chatbox, whether it's worth 10 years of my life excluding my social life...if I have one =.= And I do wish I have to dedicate myself to this. And there's the money thing too.........350k for 5 years... And thats a lot =/

I'm trying

but failing every time I get up again.


Yet, why do I try to get up even though I will fail again?



Because maybe just maybe, I could change it a little. That's why I think.


Maybe that's where my determination comes from. I get stomp, pushed back but I still keep on going ~



Too sentimental? 8D Well, sorry for you. but I wanna say this. Don't have to read this, you know.


Anyway, this is for the person who isn't a dumbass but acts like one. We care but you don't know it yet.


So, once you realize it already. Weren't you glad even for a little moment you were alive and living, creating memories and gaining experience?


I know at this moment, you're gonna be skeptical about this. But after maybe a year later. You come back again to this little post. Maybe, you'd know, no?

Why?

Why is it , that people wants to achieve greatness and step over the weaker ones , in order to achieve power? Or is it just that humans are like that? Why is it that people wants to be outstanding than the rest, and in order to do that...they crush other dreams and hopes..? WHY??

Maybe it's just a question which can never or in time will be answered......